F as in fail

And here I go again.
It may not be good for me, but I don't fucking care. I love it. It's the only fucking thing that keeps me a tiny bit sane here.

But
I'm horrible.
I suck.
I'm the worst, most useless asshole on earth.
I'm an idiot.
Like in, pretty damn stupid.
Like in, I fail every fucking class at school.
Oh, and did I mention my examn?
Hm. No I didn't. And I'm never, ever doing it again either...
How the fuck am I going to tell my parents this?
I'm not sure if I can handle letting them down like this...